'Nutmeg Tales' is a performative lecture, following the smell of the Dutch home right down to its roots in colonised Indonesia. What once started off as a personal inquiry into a Dutch cookie called 'taai taai' and my sense of home, took the form of a historic research into the Dutch settler's greedy and violent monopolisation of the nutmeg spice – an important ingredient of the taai taai. How to dwell in a native home that finds find its comfort in the fruits of a rather bloody history?